love notes

here is something

In that dream last night, that dream that kept me in bed, helped me ignore the fire alarms, makes me scared to answer a certain email, I was dancing. My feet were pointed and I could float in the air and I did perfect splits. There were other things, yes, of course there were other things (my dream are never so simple) but oh it was wonderful to feel those muscles doing those things, things they haven’t done in years, things that make my calves cramp after only seconds, make my thighs feel like they’re tearing.

I’m going to start again. I would love to have that flexibility, that fluidity of movement back.

Do I really need to tell you these things? Can’t you just read them here? I am so afraid to go into the valley of my self.